Copyright @ 2000 by Tatyana Elmanovich

Tanika's Home Development Circle

Predictions at a Home Circle sitting on July 11, 2000

A warm-up automatic writing exercise on the topic "Decision 2000"

Nila: November 7, 2000 -- Al Gore will put up a great show but he will lose. Bush will win, but he will serve only one term because he will be a disappointment. In 2004 Gore will run again and win. Al Gore will run with a woman and win. She will be the first woman president, because Al Gore will get too sick to continue. In 2008 we will see a black candidate run with a woman but they will lose to a newcomer who will also run with a woman. They will change the course of politics. We will see a one party system emerge. By 2012 two people will rule together -- a man and a woman, the masculine and feminine…

Tanika: On November 7, for the first time in the American history, the election will fail. Nobody will be elected, as none of the candidates will get a quota votes. And they will be close to announcing a re-election. The best thing that the present government did was their long-term project to collect rifles and automatic weapons and other ammunition from aggressive religious groups and militia self-defense groups. If they didn't do that, there could be many events that may trigger or escalate violence. If they continue to collect ammunition, there is a chance that the system will survive the failure of the elections. The possibility of emotional explosions is still there as people are angry and start to re-evaluate some traditional values… The war. There are still two chances. The war may be avoided, if the Russian government will obey the Western leaders' orders. And if Putin will not go ahead with his own program that is based on wanting to avenge the Russia humiliation in Chechnia. Because Russia still wants revenge and to make its power count. If Putin pursues his own goals, war may escalate fast. And China will be very pleased, hoping to become the next pet-project of America. The world still runs into emptiness, still cannot find God. God has been lost. And God is crying for help… And the hierarchy is wondering why humanity is finding God only in calamities, crises, and catastrophes and never in peace.

Yes, in November 2000, the war is still a possibility. That will influence the outcome of the election, or the fact that there will be no outcome this time around. The entire year, there was a fight to avoid the war that was ready to start many times during this year.

Messages About Forgiveness

March 28, 2000
Aunt Lydia

That night my principal guide, Thomas-Gabriel brought through my deceased Aunt Lydia from my father's side of the family. This story did not happen in the United States and it did not happen now.

In a nutshell, my father who was born in Estonia, married my would-be-mother, Tamara, a refugee from Russia. Aunt Lydia and my Granny, Lyubov Petrovna, had a hard time accepting my mother as their family member. In my childhood, I heard numerous stories about their arrogance, but over time, growing old and dealing with my own problems, I had forgotten all these family stories completely. Or so I believed. And because of that total oblivion, the request to forgive something that occurred 60 years ago, had a shocking impact on me-- far more shocking than recognizing the voices of Elvis Presley or Vladimir Vissotski during a spirit communication session. Because it was personal, very personal, -- in that request to forgive I saw-felt-became aware of my own arrogance, short temper, rudeness, unkindness, irritation, and lack of patience in dealing with other people. If someone here has to forgive, it was I who has to forgive to myself!

The following messages alone were worth starting a mediumship development circle at home.

Please, pay attention to the struggle to start talking about forgiveness. She talked to me in the Russian language. Please, put up with my translation.

Lydia: I am thrilled by the opportunity to talk to you, and I am very sad that you are not a friend with Sima (her adopted daughter). You will not meet in this lifetime. I am not happy that she didn't give you at least one ring of Lyubov Petrovna. (Lydia is talking about my grandmother's jewelry.) It is torturing me. When I was on earth, I couldn't do that because I was confused. Sima doesn't need these rings and I know that you don't need them either. These rings symbolize belonging to our family, that's all. But for some reason these valuable things have left our family. Maybe they left us because we don't need these symbols. We are not that family any more.

Tanika: Where do you live now? What do you do in your world?
Lydia: We were with you in France; we walked with you through the Louvre, and enjoyed Mona Lisa and the glass pyramid. We were with you when you walked along the Seine… It is a pain to witness how much you have to work. And we know that you will work hard for many years to come. But you also receive rewards that we couldn't dream about. You enjoy things that were completely out of our reach. One of you will soon travel to Saint Petersburg and will be very pleased to see the fast rebirth of this city. The city will be literally rebuilt out of ruins and the nightmarish disaster that the Soviet regime plunged it into. It will be a nice place to live in and people will be dressed nicely… Many good things will happen in the future, and the city will enjoy great attention and will grow fast. For Russia, Saint Petersburg will grow into the most Western city, and will embrace all the Western influences and Westerners will visit Saint Petersburg rather than Moscow. I cannot stay long on your side. I teach French (on earth Lydia taught French at a female gymnasium in Tallinn, Estonia) and try to learn more about France. I also paint. Now I have time for it, and my eyesight is back to normal, and my hands don't shake any more. (Lydia died from Parkinson's disease.) And I can paint. Here I paint the same as on earth -- lilacs and other flowers. But the colors here are so much better and brighter. I still have to return to earth and continue to be a teacher. But I will not be limited to teaching only. I will also study languages as a scholar of linguistics. And I have to learn what you are doing now on earth-- the computers. I postpone it, but I have to move on and learn desktop publishing… I hadn't done it on earth, and I don't want to do it here. I prefer to paint and not attend computer classes. But Lyubov Petrovna insists, and the others are advising to go ahead and pursue the computer's skills. It is very painful to talk about certain things…

Of course, I did not come here to talk about computers… I came to ask forgiveness from your mother, Tamara. We did an injustice to her. We were not right and we made her life and all of your lives very difficult -- Tatyana, you and your brother's life included. Now I can see it, but on earth I did not realize that we did an injustice to her. Once, when you selected old photos for your book Death the Beginning, the true reason crossed your mind. You thought that you belonged to an immigrant's family and we belonged to the non-immigrants family. We became a divided family. We behaved like people who were born and brought up in Estonia. We didn't consider ourselves refugees. But instead of helping your mother, Tamara, and integrating her into our family, we jeered, scoffed and mocked her. We let her know that she was a lower human being. But it was so untrue. And now it is N. (her distant relative who is now on earth, living in Estonia) paying for that… His life is difficult. He absorbed that bad energy and is sick. He accepted the mission to pay for the injustice done to your part of the family. It happened because of our foolishness. I am asking you to forgive me. And I am asking you to forgive Lyubov Petrovna, and the rest of us for the rudeness of our souls. Instead of helping people who lost everything (my Mother's family lost everything while escaping the Red Terror in 1918) and were in pain, we made their situation worse. We worsened Tamara's life profoundly. I cannot forgive myself. I had some influence on Lyubov Petrovna: I was the oldest among the kids. And I should place the dots on "i". But I didn't. It is very important to me that you forgive me. Thank you, that you are recording this, and I want everybody to listen to it. We did a great injustice to each other.

Tatyana: I thank you for your explanation. In my childhood I felt that something was wrong with my Mom, but I couldn't comprehend what it was. I thank you for teaching me some manners, for instance to answer the phone politely… Especially in America I recalled your lessons and have been thankful for teaching me the basics of the communication skills.

April 11, 2000

My Grandmother Lyubov Petrovna

This time Thomas-Gabriel brought through my grandmother Lyubov Petrovna. She is my father's mother. Some years before her passing, she read Emile Zola novels in French. Russian was her mother tongue, but she also was fluent in German, French and Estonian, and knew some of the English and the Polish languages. This list of languages speaks for itself indicating an educated person. The story will show that we are never too educated, and there is always something not quite right in the world that we create for ourselves.

Lyubov Petrovna found herself in Estonia after marrying my grandfather Grigory Elmanovich who was given a position as the government inspector of the Estonian vodka taxes that had to be paid to the Russian czarist government. Of course, the revolution and European wars would change her life forever, and the family would lose its fortune. Yes, they lost everything but attitude…

This is our first meeting after she passed in the 50s in Estonia.

Lyubov Petrovna : "I made your mother live in fear which I shouldn't have done. It did not dawn on me that her time to be together with my son was so brief, and that their destiny would part them so soon. And I poisoned their life in that tiny back room that I gave them to live in our old house. If we had switched the rooms, there would still be a half of that house for my use. But it wasn't the room that really mattered. Thank you, Tatyana, for your help. You don't know how you helped me. There are things that you don't know and maybe you shouldn't know. Because we have been connected many lifetimes, and I earned the fatal illness of mine (Parkinson's disease) in my past lifetimes, I don't want to recall the past right now. And the gloomy mood of mine, and the most difficult times of revolution and wars and the loss of our fortune were earned by my terrible past lives. Soon I have to go back to earth and I don't want to, and I try to postpone the incarnation, and do my part on our side, here in the spirit world. In order to be successful here, I need my health. Sometimes it is okay, but sometimes it worsens. And in order to improve my health I need your forgiveness. I ask you to forgive me, my intentional and unintentional transgressions. I ask you to forgive me that haughtiness and arrogance that I showed to your mother, to you and toward all her relatives. That arrogance was impermissible: it was totally unfounded. I am now a teacher and teach many children, smart ones and not so smart ones, in order to gain patience. I already feel much better as I see and understand that you have no hard feelings toward me and that you helped your mother Tamara to overcome the feeling of offense and forget it. Every time when she read that bad letter that I wrote her once, I suffered here, in our world. It caused me pain."

Yes, 60 years ago, Lyubov Petrovna wrote a nasty letter charging my mother with infidelity. My mother kept that letter. Whenever she was in a bad mood, she produced it out of a special box and read it over and over again. Lately, when I visited my mother in Estonia, and she was already 90 years old, an incredible misunderstanding occurred. Accidentally (or not so accidentally), I destroyed that letter… At the moment, my mother was sad and angry, but in a couple of hours something else occupied her mind, and it seemed that she got over it.

I assured my grandmother that I have no knowledge or memory of her wrongdoing because I wasn't an angel either. And I asked her forgiveness for my transgressions as well. And as we talked, she changed. In my mind eye, I saw her as an old and unhappy woman. But during our conversation, she shed at least 30 years and left my space looking much younger and healthier.